Unintentional Hiatus

So, I just realized that I haven’t posted since mid-December. Haha, oops. Every night when I lie down in bed, I go over in my mind all the things I want to write about and I keep telling myself I will start again tomorrow.

My absence has not been for lack of material, I assure you of that. New motherhood leaves no shortage of good blog material! I’m just so TIRED all the time, despite the fact that Baby E sleeps for 12 hours every night. The 24/7 responsibility for another person is just exhausting no matter how much rest you’re getting.

I’ve also been dealing with some PPD/PPA issues since October, and I fully intend to write about them once I get my thoughts in order. While I was ashamed at first, I know now that I have nothing to feel bad about. I believe that it’s important for me to share my experience so that other moms may read about it and realize they’re not alone or crazy or bad mothers. I am happy to report that I’m doing much better now thanks to medication and opening up to my friends and family.

Otherwise, my days are full of snuggles and smiles and dirty diapers. Baby E has started solids and is working on crawling. She has also mastered the fine art of screeching like a howler monkey, and she enjoys sharing this talent with the world at the most inopportune times, such as during Mass. She has moved into her crib and we have a convertible car seat sitting in the office just waiting to be installed. She loves to roll around and put everything in her mouth. She also drools like a faucet, so I spend a large chunk of time washing the 30+ bibs we have every couple of days.

She is growing up much too quickly, as babies tend to do. I’m doing my best to enjoy every second with her and to savor all of the sloppy kisses and nighttime hand-holding because I know that it will all be over before I know it.

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5 thoughts on “Unintentional Hiatus

  1. I totally relate to the tiredness – my baby girl too sleeps for 12 hours a night and I am still exhausted all the time. When I share with other moms they give me the whole “oh your baby sleeps through the night, stop comparing” smirk. Such a happy time, but such a difficult one too. It’s like we are giving every last ounce of ourselves to these little babies and there’s barely anything left for ourselves.

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    • I know, I hate complaining about being tired because I know a lot of moms have it MUCH worse! But that still doesn’t change the fact that I’m exhausted, lol. I’m glad someone else can relate to this!

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  2. I’m glad to see you back!

    I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling with PPD. When Caleb was first born, I struggled REALLY badly for a few weeks. I went to the doctor who winded up just diagnosing me with baby blues and it eventually went away, but I remember how I felt and it was rough. I think it’s smart that you’re going to write about it. I felt a lot better anytime I wrote or talked about it. I felt so much less alone.

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