Bad Blogger

>I know. I’ve been a horrible blogger lately. Part of it is because I am beyond lazy, and the other part is that I’ve been wanting to write some hugely meaningful and deep post but that’s not as easy as I thought it would be. See, my friend, Cyndi, wrote this great post a couple of weeks ago and I wanted to be a copycat and do the same thing. She wrote a letter to her teenage self and addressed all the issues that she was dealing with at the time. I was (and still am) awed by her honesty and courage to not only face those things about herself, but post them online for all of the internets to read.

I don’t know that I’m ready to put it all out there for everyone to see, but I’m not really sure why. I think because then I’d have to really DEAL with some of my food/self-esteem/body issues and it’s much easier to live in blissful ignorance than to sort through those emotions. I’m writing the letter in my head, though, and I think I may sit down this weekend and force myself to write it. As hard as it might be, it may also be somewhat therapeutic to take those feelings and put them OUTSIDE of myself. Don’t they always say that things are easier to deal with when you talk about them?

Anyway. In less soul-searching news, I’M GOING TO IRELAND!!! My bosses are sending me and one of my coworkers (not the same girl as last year, but someone I’m actually real-life-outside-of-work-friends with) next month for a week-long trip and we are just bursting with excitement. I don’t have too many details, but I do know we’re going to Dublin, Kinsale, Kenmare, Galway, and Shannon. We’ll be driving when we leave Dublin, which is going to be extremely interesting AND entertaining since they drive on the other (i.e., WRONG) side of the road over there. Luckily, she is the designated driver for the trip because I’m sure I would hit a sheep or a leprechaun or something if I was behind the wheel.

I’m finally back to officially non-officially doing Weight Watchers (counting points but not going to meetings or paying them money or anything crazy like that). I’ve been following it for 3 weeks and have lost 4.2 pounds so far. I would have lost more by this point in time, but apparently pizza, cheesecake, and wine have lots of calories and very little fiber. Who knew? I’m very excited to get down to 150 pounds, but I’m also dreading it because then I lose two food points per day (I have 22 now and will go down to 20). Ugh. It’s hard enough to stay full now, I don’t know what I’m going to do without those extra two! I can do it, though. I’ve done it before and it’s hard but it’s worth it. And I have great friends like Cyndi and Michelle doing the whole healthy-eating-and-exercise thing with me which helps a ton.